What is in a name, a rose by any other name would smell just as sweet. ~Shakespeare
So I have nearly always hated my name. I have had reasons… And they seemed like good ones. But it really came down to the fact that I never heard my name unless I was in trouble. Not my full name anyway. So I spent a hefty portion of my life looking at other names and feeling envy. I wanted to be anyone else, and I felt that a lot of it was the name. My full name is Patricia Lynn Harris. So common a name. Google it. There are hundreds of Patricia Harris’s out there. As a younger girl I would write as Susan Ann Andrews. I adored the name Susan. It seemed to embody all of the desire I wanted. I was even “Sassy Susie” on the Cb radio.
It was something that I always assumed would be my pen name. I am not sure why I put my full name on the first thing I published. It was not something that I really thought out. I was just trying to have my voice be heard. After that it was a matter of principal. I was already out as that name. To change it felt like I was hiding from the past. That was not something that I was willing to do.
So I did the poetry. I did the kids books. And I was doing all of it with who I was. Stories for my girl, and poetry that was how I dealt with the emotional baggage of life. So I forgot about pen names. I didn’t need one.
Then my Joe, bless him, decided to be my muse. He started giving me dark ideas. Delightful ideas, ones that I wanted to read. Ideas that hadn’t been written. However the ideas were violent and really not kid friendly. So I found myself needing a pen name. I wanted something that was more true to who I was.
I am pagan. I have a name that I use in my ritual times. Serenity Rose Lace. I wanted to at least use some of this name. So I chose to use a variation on Serenity. Serena. I also wanted to acknowledge the darkness of what I was wanting to write… So Mossgraves. It sounded good to me.
So that is where my Pen name originated. What name would you choose, If you could name yourself?